While you're too busy turning on your machine mode at work to even think about me, I sit here missing you like a little girl.
I recall what I was like before you came into my life. It was when I was at the heights of my mood swing and I was grumbling about my so called 'routine' life, you entered like a breeze. I am not at all a open person but then it changed one day, when you buzzed me. I felt like we had some sort of connection. I didn’t see you then. I didn’t know who you were. Your words brought me back my lost strength and filled me with delight. You infact brought ME out of my monotonous self.
Your words sprinkled over
To refresh my brain…
Like a hymn of the drizzling rain…
Remember the first time we spoke over call? I was feeling like a toddler asked to read ‘The Othello’ on stage. But it turned out to be one of the most amazing conversations I’ve ever had. Sparkled with surprises, well staged with sharing our thoughts, sprinkled with witty smiles here and there and it was like solving an exciting puzzle, one line leading to another and so on and so forth. Do you know how long we spoke and what all we spoke? All I could recollect now was the 'Sangeetha Swarangal....' song.
With you, I’m at ease. Always. I don't even have to try so hard to talk. My non stop talk about those goday movies I watched, my hahoo cooking time and even bragging about my birds or then, there comes on and off my mokka jokes. You bear all my nonsense and insanity.
Every moment I spend with you is very precious to me. When we shared the mini Red Velvet cake, the stroll in the park without having to force a conversation and when we watch movies together, but with you there and me here… Simple pleasures, I’d say.
You bring me joy and cheer,
To brighten my mood and make me smile,
I feel you're here and near,
Even when you’re far away, few hundred miles…
I love teasing you, especially when you look at other girls or I purposefully irritate you by talking about the men I ogle. It's fun when you get irritated at those times, theriyuma? When you scold me, though I go bah, I smile heartily at the end, for only you know why. But then after all this connection, do we have anything in common? Nah.. You're North pole and I'm South. You are somewhat intelligent while I’m a know it all. Still we strike incredible conversation that makes us forget the time fly.
While I was going through your folders few days ago, I stumbled on a piece you wrote. It's like I was getting introduced to myself again.
'.....She never got off my mind since that morning. I felt privileged to know her. Her thoughts were deep and clear, but she sounded messy. Her quirky nature was evident, but I felt her innocence. Her tease was silly, but it was sharp. It is so impossible for me to write everything that came to my mind about her. The only words that came out are, “She’s Something”....'
I love you with no limits. I will gladly experience all that the life has to offer, both good and the bad, but with you at my side. You are my courage. You are my happiness. And I wish to whisper sweet nothings into your ear as I grow old with you.
I still live my routine life but it’s not colorless and mundane anymore. I sit here in the silence of my room trying to reminisce my moments with you and to compose my feelings that even poets might have struggled to speak about.
I can't assure your sanity if you are in love with me. But then in love, even craziness makes a lot of sense. What do you say?
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